I’ve been thinking about writing a screenplay. I also thought about writing a poem and some other fancy things. I also outlined two posters. A general one for KSPC and a horrible one for the program guide. I haven’t started anything, just thought about them. I have lots of time, but I just sleep a lot instead of starting things. There are a lot of reasons I don’t want to start things. I don’t want to start the poster because it involves gathering a lot of found photos and cutting and rendering them, which is tedious and the least fun part of making collages. The actual cutting. which is also a  huge part of making collages so I’m pretty fucked as far as that goes. I thought I would draw the program guide and scan it. But then I remembered I still can’t actually draw well. But then I remembered it didn’t matter all that much because designers just have to make people believe they’re good at art, not actually be good at it. I felt really bad about not doing anything on this journal because I made everyone add it. But I felt even worst about my external harddrive which had lots of things I like to look at on it. and all my music. I like to reread old stuff I write and look at old things I draw before I start something new so I can remember how I write instead of writing like the last thing I read and looking back months later and thinking ‘who wrote this? (which has happened-twice.) I want my screenplay to be really good and impossible for me to produce right now. I want it to be fun to read though. When I think about it I want it to be a novel, but then I remember I don’t want to write a novel. I should write a short story. I will. I have goals this summer, all of which I’ve failed at. If sleeping was one of my goals I would be making a lot of headway, but it’s not. It’s just something I do too much, which then makes me do it more.



I drew this because i feel bad about not having any art yet. I drew it with the laptop pad because i'm in bed and my drawing pad is on the other side of the room.

This is  the ART  live journal of old_fart_1 um. add it if you'd like.